(This was Sophie and I a year ago yesterday! What a year in Bali its been.)

 

 

 

Of course we have been taught and sold to deny, repress, remove our emotions. We disempower ourselves when we do.

 

I think we can all agree that this year served up some pretty intense challenges, or BFO’s (big fucking opportunities) for growth and evolution.

 

As we come to completion of a year, like many I am super reflective. WHAT A YEAR!

 

I have learned many things this year and have grown in ways I never knew possible of which I will continue to share over in the upcoming days.

 

But a big theme – the benefits of being e-motionally embodied.

 

Our e-motions are our energy-in-motion.  Literally our creative life force energy in motion. Life moving through us.  We are conduits of this life force energy.

 

Emotional healing, growth, maturation and coming into our e-motional body is essential in our ascension process. The releasing of trapped emotions, trauma patterns and the alchemy that happens when we reclaim the creative life force – on all dimensions – where our soul needs retrieval, due to fractures, conditioning, wounding, learned behavior and trauma …we have to call that part of us back home, welcoming every emotion of the scared child with a love only Divine to retrieve the part of us that was lost, so we can come back into our bodies. Our aligned mind. Stop the war with our e-motions. And allow the current to flow...

 

 

I had several experiences this year that given my own mastery and Initiation as the steward of Creative Alchemy ™, brought me to my knees.

 

I could no longer carry the e-motional pattern anymore. I had done the inner work to shift it and as in karmic alchemy requires and then I had to change the pattern in the physical.

 

And now hindsight almost 2020 (hahaha!)

 

I can see the e-motional pattern in a big way and how it was blocking so much flow and causing me so much pain. Pain I am sure I had gotten use to.

 

It showed up in relationships mostly to do with money although not strictly with business, where there would be in the exchange and e-motional pattern ( and many you can relate to this…) of having an agreement with someone and then that agreement changing (which is fine) but there was no accountability in the other party. No responsibility for their part in the tango and like a good girl stuck in the shame and guilt of an old childhood pattern, I took it on as my own. I felt bad. I carried the burden I energetically and because this was a comfortable known way I would take it on and transmute it as my own.

 

The guilt and the shame of my magic, my healing gifts, my beauty, my woman hood, sexuality, creativity, my abundance, whatever I would feel guilty about it on some level and it was oppressive. It was an oppressive e-motional pattern.

And the burden wasn’t mine to carry. But it was a familiar way, and it was often unconscious, until it wasn’t… this pattern got so loud that I could not longer play that part.

 

Also because I have a REGULAR practice (when guided and needed) of Creative Alchemy ™ I clear stuff and evolve it when it comes up. I am fully in my e-motional body, fully flowing…fully at home in me. Fully backing myself vs this scared little girl who felt responsible for other people’s pain.

 

The more I alchemized the more I saw this pattern. The more I was embodied, the more I could no longer play this part. I could no longer afford to.

 

Because I no longer had the gaps that matched me with these experiences, I was started to see what was going on for me, how this was truly serving my growth and shifting my energy around it.

 

I stopped taking responsibly for other people’s energy. (unconscious emotions, behaviors, decisions, karma, etc)

 

 

 

I started to say no thanks. This is yours and I will not take it on. And send the energy back.

 

With compassion. I took responsibility for my part in the co+creation always. But I can only own my part. I started speaking up more, honoring myself in the exchange.

 

And let it go.

 

This was wildly freeing as I reclaim my true identity and still takes some practice and alchemy as I am sure I am shifting lifetimes of this co+dependent configuration, trusting myself in what is mine and what is not.

 

The time for co+creation is here. True co+creation with creators who are equally embodied, inspired and self-responsible to SOUL.

 

Can you see this e-motional pattern in your own life experience?

 

One thing I have learned this year is if you take on other people’s energy or feel responsible for them and their well-being in any way, you take on their karma. Their soul lessons. Their creative consciousness.

 

So give it back in 2020 and come home to you, I can show you how (but I can’t do it for you…)

 

 

 

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